I am still afraid to do the step. The 2 days fasting and the vomit.
I know it's best for me that I am a coward.
But really ,being in danger will bring attention.
And attention will bring me happiness. And I know it's bad,
and I know that I shouldn't do it.
But I also know I may not be fat ,
but I am not as thin as I would like me to be.
Today I fasted. Tomorrow I won't be able to,
my mom is at home so she will control me
but Thursday and Friday I'll try.
I WILL TRY TO
START DESTROYING MYSELF
SO I GET ATTENTION.
no matter how stupid it sounds
its my life for 5 years.