I think I have mentioned that. I don't think that I can be pleased by anyone including myself. I always find a dislike on every single thing. I could name a thousand dislikes on every person I have met ,but in this post I want to talk about my own dislikes about myself. Later ,I would want to try and write down my "likes".
>Fat inner thighs
>Not attractive butt
>my skin is too white and sensitive. i get sunburned all the time ,peel and bruise easily
>Even when I am working out for a long time ,I don't see any changes on my body
>Fat face with big cheeks
>Cracked teeth (wearing braces)
Character / Others :
>Too much imagination
>High expectations of myself
>Can neither forgive nor forget
>Afraid I will bore the person I am talking to
>Talks too much
>Sometimes not funny at all
>Too fucking sensitive
>Trying to protect myself and always destroying my happiness at the very last moment
>Can't and don't want to express my feelings
>Showing a really different face to people ,like I am happy and snobbish and "famous". My problem is not that I am not true ,my problem is that I wish I was like that.
>Becomes jealous too easily
>Not bright enough
>Not anything enough
>Tends to forget things
>Sucks at sports ,dancing ,singing ,acting while loving them
>Never determined and motivated enough
>Never let myself enjoy something
>Feeling guilty for small things
>Too coward to do anything including suicidal
>Thinks rationally but when talks sounds like stupid
There are more. There are always more. They keep increasing. Don't know why I wrote this post.
P.S NY times have not contacted with me ,so guess what ,they did not publish my story. I also passed my German examination which I am happy about.